What to do ?

everything is happen 
i don't want to think about it again
its keep hurting me 
and now i ask izit still got contact with that guys.
"Seldom" ?
but in fact they are always did that 
is that call seldom ?


Hmm 
i m tiring with it.
what to do
let it be a perfect lie from you 
keep it on my heart
let it be
this is only i can do
i don't need any commitment 
just remember what need to do
thats all
no point for me to say anything
want me change back like before 
my answer only same as you
i ll try
give me some time
if i cant ?
i can only say "Sorry"
you had change me 

Something i mind

Huh
I just found something and i am very mind that
and its very ridiculous for xxxxxxxxxx
but what i can do again ?
except pretend . there got no way to go
but i wont pretend and do nothing 
i will do the same thing as you
the thing you are doing now
maybe you wont regret what you choose now
i can't care it much again
Sorry ~ i've to do so .

What can i do ?

One week already 
i mention the problem before one week
till now
i wonder izit she happy or what
she treat me moody but other guys ?
treat them so good ?
everything i also don't mind already 
what you want from me ?
i just need a care !
i just want you treat me more good than your friend !
thats all i want ......
i am not understand at all now 
but if u feel happy 
Please continue hurt me ! 

Everything is clearly

During the days we don't message each other 

i think a lot of thing 

i leave ipoh

try to think clearly everything

i feel that i am doing something wrong

i understand her but what i did was wrong 

she is a college student 

i have to remind that to myself

that a point

she have to enjoy her life

i cant control anything 

ya , maybe i really have to thank to her friend 

her friend let me be more clearly in thinking everything

should be my false

my jealous make me forget what she are 

Maybe all is my false 

maybe because i am too care on her

let me lost my way

i m just a idiot 

sorry

please tell what you want

Question

A lot thing is happen 
but a lot thing i not understand
i want to know why lie me but angry me ?
what you talk to me just only want to hurt me ?
what is mean let you capricious for once ?
what you mean don't find you for these feel day ?
what is mean let alone 1st ?
why you look so happy when i don't find you ?
what my status on your heart ?
is that the last one ? or just no status at all ?
what is mean your friend treat you badly and make you change until you treat like that ?
what make you feel worth ?
what you think about for this two years ?
do you love me ?
what is mean give you a break ?
you think only you feel bad when you 're bluff me ?
you said got care my feeling 
sometimes ? 
do you got think by my side when you do anything ?
why you promise me at the 1st ?
but after that you said don't want go with rules ? 
why when you lie but still can say something like scold me ?
is that everything is my false ?
i not a good boyfriend ?
i don't treat you good ?
i am suck ? 
i am not good as your friend ?
you told me i am the most important 
but actually friend is most important for you
i don't have jurisdiction to control you 
you think i can control  you ?
think clearly !
when you go out you 'll tell me last min !
even i saw the post at facebook and the plan is on
but you can tell me don't have out
when the day you will tell me when you are hang out already 
promise is useless already 
promise just a lie now 
you cant promise me anything 
delete "promise" on your dictionary 
since i think you don't know what mean with "promise"
but what you did to me 
i am still not understand
you told me you've change and i should thank for your friend 
anyway
i've to thank you to you 1st
you really change me on this time
you let me think back the past
thank for the hurt thank for the lie
but i am still very love you
i wont break up with you
and i cant too
but i will change the way to love you


Adrian 
thank to you 
with sincere ~

The Truth

I know all the truth

the lie always together with us

someone call me just now

told me her life 

where they saw her

i feel crazy

i just feel like want to die

i don't want to lost her

even she hurt me

i want to be with her

i can give her a chance 

if she told all the truth by her mouth

i just lie her twice with smooking

i m quit

but now

is on her

she don't tell me all the truth 

as she said before

"i will tell you everything"

i am already told her before 

i will not angry

maybe a bit mad

but its wont be so serious

can i just bed you ?

tell me all the truth

i am so sad 

i cant believe with what you do ! 

i need leave my home now ..

Confusing

Today ,
is the same thing happen again
no matter i know what you doing
i still feel not good
or maybe i still not really clear what actually you re doing
i just trying to calm down myself
i am trying my best


I don't really mind received few message a day
its okay since you re studying
but one thing she don't know
i am so sensitive with the word "oo"
that seem like bring me lot of meaning
maybe i think too much


Hmm ,
is that message become my daily habit ?
should i start to used to it ?
Can i do that ?
I Have no idea with that
Confusinggggggggg ~


And the most hurt thing
she let other guys call her "dear"
some more she still can laugh and feel that nothing
what mean with "dear" "lou poh" and "wo ai ni"
mean less ?
Love is blind  
i hope my ear deaf 
my eye is blind
my mouth is dumb
I wont stingy
wont easily jealous
generous
endure the heart with high skilled

Feel Good

I thought today is the another expectation days

since i only get ten message from her again

but i know that she is studying for her exam

Maybe im still worrying something ?

ah

i don't really know what thing playing on mind

But

She called me 

suddenly my heart is feel good

suddenly miss our sweet time 

the time that we are hanging out

Hopefully, i can let the relationship be more good

i am trying my best 

First

THE first time i come to write in blog
Just some of feeling that i cant tell anymore
that make me come here

The story is between me and beloved cutie girlfriend
If i don't have wrong remember
is happen on last few week
we start some argue for some small matter
after that my beloved girlfriend start less message me
at first,i don't have anything
But
one day less than one day
some more 8 message for a day
and i still remember before that she told me
her phone unlock keypad has been spoil
i just think that only because
she don't want to press phone since is spoil

After few day
the situation is the same
im start wondering
because that is not because about the phone
but actually she is so moody
she told me maybe the exam is coming
pressure?worrying?
sorry
i don't know

I don't want to ask her now
even a message with "night" the word will be use when she is mad at me
Well
anything
If i ask maybe will become an argue again

I don't hope it will be affect her exam that coming on next week

Wish you all the best on your exam
If you need more time on your time
just tell me and ignore me
Im okay